Sometimes the best thing is a very simple thing. Some people found it easier to smile with it. They believe things don’t have to be complex just to have a little smile. Despite of that, many others are dyin’ to make all things even complicated that it should be. They need something new in their life to make sure they still exist. And me, I love simple things in life. I don’t need to bustin’ my ass everytime I wanna smile. Stayin’ high all day would be the best for me. So I don’t need a break through in life. But maybe I got so bored sometimes. Doin’ the same stupid stuff everyday, feelin’ the same shit each day… it all making me sick. But I know the world keeps movin’ everytime I breathe. I know things will always change. But I don’t care where the world’s gonna throw me away. I just wanna play it simple.
Life is about choices. Some of them are big, but the others are even bigger. There was a time in my life when I made a very… very bad choice. And it has become a major damaged inside me. Then it turned out to be my fate. So now I’m thinkin’, “Can a bad choice defeat fate?“ Fate is our final destination. When we made a bad choice, we have to face two options; go back or go forward. But we cannot hide, ‘cause fate will find us. And no matter how fast we run, it’s always one step ahead. Fate will haunt us ’till we die.
Voices… whispering at me, in my mind. The same voice. Persuade me to take part again of the simple joys of the world. I knew things would not as they were with other people. Maybe I was just part of them that being cast out. Was I bad? Have I done something wrong? But somehow I survived without them. It became worthwhile to smile again, leaving all the pain back there. Damn… it feels good. The world is already fat on the blood of the pain. And my presence here reborn a dying soul. I feel like something is coming. Something… good.
There comes a time for me when the idea of life becomes momentarily unbearable. Living in the shadows, lying in the darkness with only my own company to keep; rots into a solitary hollow existence. It seemed like a good idea at the time, until I realize I’m going to spend it like this. So I scream out loud, hoping that the sounds of the passing years old would fade out. But as I stand here, the world doesn’t sound like the place I’ve left. Something different. And the sort of death might happen. For nights and days I cried, I’ve called them. But there was no answer; just the endless unprecious days, months, years. They left me to my darkest lesson that somehow I’m alone, and there’s nothin’ but the cold dark wasteland of eternity. I was meant for more than this.
Sometimes strangers come into your life and then disappear, just like that. Without you realize you’re missing something. And you try to ignore it somehow. But then the feeling of lost won’t stop haunting you. And you’re wondering, “Who are they? What’ve they done to me?” Indeed they came in a short term. But one thing you should know, they left you something; a lesson. A valuable lesson of life. The world is full of strangers. And I’m one of them.
If I could just go back, forget everything and start all over again. If I could be the same person like I used to be, maybe everything wouldn’t be like this. It’s too complicated for me to understand what’s this all about. They said, “It’s all about life.” But then I figure, what life’s all about. I never had a chance to understand how life works. Things happen so fast. One day you realize things goin’ so well, and then you bring your life over the clouds. But as a blink of an eye you found yourself diggin’ your own grave. So tell me how to understand that. Maybe life is just a game we play. We start it and we end it, that simple. Maybe life is about a decision we make. Well eventually, life is how you describe it. And you’re never wrong somehow.
Something scares me, and it keeps haunting me everywhere I go. I’m not quite sure what it is, but it’s coming. I felt it strong enough that it’ll arrive soon before I realize. I’m afraid I’m gonna lost my soul. I’m afraid I’m gonna let the door closed. My time is coming near, and I don’t think I’m ready for it. I don’t have any other choice. I must face it, even if I knew I’m gonna lost.