May 28, 2003

Posted: April 3, 2014 in sethlestath

Looking back the day He took her, reborn all the nightmares through the night. Hoping it was just a dream. “Wake up! Wake up from this nightmare.“ Still she’s lying in the coffin of orchid. My life has ended along with the smile of hers. It’ll never be the same anymore.


May 1, 2003

Posted: March 30, 2014 in sethlestath

Every night… the same dream, the same strange situation. But why? What are they tryin’ to tell me? Have they won already? I convince that these dreams are some form of communication. The message is still confusing me. But the impact has grown stronger. I believe my dreams hold the key. So let the dreams begin.

March 16, 2003

Posted: March 30, 2014 in sethlestath

Do you know what love is? People assuring themselves they’re in love. But they’re not exactly. When you’re falling in love it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides. And when it subsides you have to make decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so in-twine together that it isn’t separate why you should’ve apart. Because that what love is. Love is not a breathless insanity, not excitement. It’s not a desire to make every second of the day, do not lying at night imagining he/she is kissing every part of your body. No. It’s not that. But let me tell you something. It is true smile describes the feeling of love, which any of us feels it. But love itself is what it’s left over, when being in love has burn away. Doesn’t sound very exciting, does it? But it does. For a thousand miles I’ve been followed the path of love, for a billion beauties I’ve known, there’s only a single soul represent love. Rika’s. It was a love that I felt after I lost her. That was love.

April 10, 2003

Posted: March 20, 2014 in sethlestath

The curse strikes back, more powerful than before. This time they’re haunting my father to death. It’s been 3 years since they arrived into my life, and not a day passes without fear. They forced me to live in it. I have vowed to end this fear. But the more I try the stronger they become. And they’re comin’ faster now, and that can only one thing; the curse is beginning to win.

March 21, 2003

Posted: March 16, 2014 in sethlestath

Talking about marriage is talking about huge changes. And when you do, you’re taking a giant step in your life. And things would become complex. Marriage is about responsibility. A responsible to support your child, your wife, and of course yourself. You have a responsible for their needs; their happiness; their life. Spooky isn’t it? Some people think marriage is a must. “We have to create a new generation,” they said. Part of me found it hard to accept it, but they’re right. A new generation to continue the kingdom. But I don’t know, maybe the whole idea about marriage is nonsense. I mean marriage is not always about love. If so, what’s the point of marriage then? Well I don’t know what the point of it is. But I do know I believe in soul mate. I do believe we’re meant for somebody somewhere. But somewhere is large, and we’re not being able to search every inch of it, do we? So I don’t believe we’re gonna end up with our soul mate. But how wonderful life is if someone found one?

March 7, 2003

Posted: March 11, 2014 in sethlestath

Sometimes the best thing is a very simple thing. Some people found it easier to smile with it. They believe things don’t have to be complex just to have a little smile. Despite of that, many others are dyin’ to make all things even complicated that it should be. They need something new in their life to make sure they still exist. And me, I love simple things in life. I don’t need to bustin’ my ass everytime I wanna smile. Stayin’ high all day would be the best for me. So I don’t need a break through in life. But maybe I got so bored sometimes. Doin’ the same stupid stuff everyday, feelin’ the same shit each day… it all making me sick. But I know the world keeps movin’ everytime I breathe. I know things will always change. But I don’t care where the world’s gonna throw me away. I just wanna play it simple.

February 22, 2003

Posted: March 10, 2014 in sethlestath

Life is about choices. Some of them are big, but the others are even bigger. There was a time in my life when I made a very… very bad choice. And it has become a major damaged inside me. Then it turned out to be my fate. So now I’m thinkin’, “Can a bad choice defeat fate?“ Fate is our final destination. When we made a bad choice, we have to face two options; go back or go forward. But we cannot hide, ‘cause fate will find us. And no matter how fast we run, it’s always one step ahead. Fate will haunt us ’till we die.